Stupid family.

I am really annoyed and hurt because M and I have been purposely not invited to my stepdad's 60th B'Day party at a restaurant of some description, which was had on his actual b'day (thats how important it was considered - as my family rarely have b'day dinners during the weekdays). 

Everyone else was there, including my sister and her partner, my stepdad's daughter, my grandparents, his parents. And the excuse that my sister gave is that they thought I/we wouldn't be interested, which is complete and utter bullshit, as we always have all our b'day dinners together since like ever.   

However, whenever M invites my mom and stepdad our for dinner, my mom goes to a lot of effort to make sure my sister is invited and not left out. But apparently, the same courtesy does NOT extend to me. Apparently, the presence of this daughter is not essential and will be just a waste of their money.

This is how things went down on Saturday, which led to my discovery of the B'Day dinner which had taken place and which everyone was trying to keep from me: 

"Saturday morning I spent looking for a suitable present for my stepdad. I settled on a nice polo top from Jetty Surf, making sure it wasn't on sale, and deliberately asking the sales attendant to make sure that if he (stepdad) didn't like it, he would be able to exchange  at a store which is closer to his work in the CBD. After purchasing said shirt, I went to a german patisserie where I proceeded to buy a bunch of cherry pastries and donuts which I knew my mom and sister and stepdad liked. 

After his I travelled to my mom's house. We helped our grampa sign a form, then ran some errands and returned to my mom's house. My sister's boyfriend came by after finishing his football game at Glenelg to pick her up. While making his tea, and carrying it back I overheard him and my stepdad quietly talking about meals they had  for dinner for his B'Day which had apparently taken place on Monday w/o my knowledge. The dinner, which I thought was yet to take place and to which I assumed I and M had an invitation.  Not so according to my family. 

Returning home, I decided to raise the issue with my mom, just a little hurt at that stage. I sent her a sms asking when she wanted to have his 60th B'Day dinner. She replied saying that she wasn't planning anything at this stage as my stepdad didn't want anything big. Another lie as he enjoys having dinners and having a nice glass of wine and cooking for guests as does my mom.

Since I knew what I knew, I told her of what I overheard that afternoon, to which she replied that it was just a small, spontaneous dinner and hardly any one was there. Another lie, as I later discovered from my sister that EVERYONE (all our and his families) except me and M were invited."

I am confused, as we have always had all our B'Day dinners together. At this stage I don't understand what I have done to deserve to be slighted like this. I do my best to help my mom and sister with everything, as much as is within my power. 

It seems that they didn't want to invite me and then went to some effort to conceal the fact that this dinner had ever taken place. 

I am increasingly annoyed and hurt at the fact that my mom seems to care about my sister more than she does about me. I have been having some health issues for the past 4-5 months, and my mom has not even asked me once about how I feel or what my test results were. When she spent all Saturday fussing about my sister having a mild headache. I am seeing specialists on a fortnightly basis at the hospital, but not one concerned question about how everything is going and what the test results or the specialist's recommendations are. I had to force the information on her last week, and even then she seemed to wave me off with annoyance telling me to stop stressing and appearing inconvenienced at having to hear about my negative news. And in the end, I was feeling stupid and pathetic for ever bringing it up and inconveniencing her with this information. 

I am sorry to anyone who may not be wanting to read about my family issues, but this blog is about my life and what happens in it, so here it is - strait from the horse's mouth. Life cant always be full of roses. 

I don't understand their attitude. I always put so much thought and money into their presents, always finding the perfect gift in something I can never afford. Making sure that its exactly as they like, and always making sure that they can exchange or refund it if they don't like it after all. Needless to say, the presents I get are hardly in the same league. 

It's not about the money to me though, if it was I wouldn't spend so much money trying to get everyone the perfect present. I try to find them things they like, for example, a white gold and solid diamonds pendant for my mom's last B'Day. Knowing she loves white gold. Like the stupid cakes - trying to bring along something nice every time I visit. 

I am sad.