Have you ever noticed how winter lasts about 6 months while summer only about 3? Winter starts in approximately April-May and finishes in October-November. And then not the whole of the summer is warm -and I like it warm - between 30C and 37C is the most comfortable for me I must say.
But anyways, in other news - the monotony of my job is starting to get me down. When I first got into this type of work, I was somewhat excited, but by now I would have expected to have achieved more diversity in my working life. And I am not kidding about the monotony. People do not last in this type of work for very long. The average is about 3-6 months. I have been in it for about 2 years. I first started when I was at the beginning of my last year and a half of uni. So I was doing full time study, clinical placements and trying to fit in a full time job. It wasn't fun I tells ya. But the unfortunate thing is - it was more fun than it is now. I had way more fun at uni, then after graduating. Is this a common thing or is there something wrong with me. Am I just really irresponsible and immature? Hmmm. But seriously I have outlasted dozens of people.
But the thing is, I know that this work needs to be done and that it brings in much needed resources to our not for profit charitable organisation. And I know my boss would be left in a lurch if I suddenly decided that I just couldn't continue doing this work anymore. So I just try to work thru my slump and keep doing it. *sigh* I am also terrified of being unemployed. I have never been unempoyed. I have been working since I was 13.
I am also trying to plan a small gathering for M's birthday next week. I don't want to make it too big because if I start inviting everyone in his family, I will end up with dozens (and dozens, I mean it) of people. And I am somewhat unprepared to cook a meal for that many. And where will we fit them all. We don't have an outdoor setting and our yard is sloped. And we have a crazy destructive dog who steals food of your plate the second you turn away. Double hmmm. And anyway, I doubt that anyone will actually want to be outside, with the evening temperatures going down to below zero lately. I think I will just invite my family and have something with his family later on. Maybe go out to a nice restaurant (in this case i doubt his dad will make it, his idea of fancy is a schnitzel specials night). And sensitivity is not that man's forte.
Already, this is starting to make me anxious. I am not the best at throwing dinner gatherings. I can cook fine. It's just cooking for so many. Yikes. I have a very small family and am unused to large family gatherings.
I think I shall go and eat some fry's turkish delite lollies to get me out of this funk (hopefully). They are my favorite. I knew I shouldn't have bought that half a kilo box of favorites.
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